mood swings

My lack of focus is spiraling into some crushing hole. I feel heavier and like a great blank spot has made residence up in my chest. I am tired I have insomnia I can't focus I find myself starring at the tv for hours it's the only time I can sit still I just want …

bravado

I did alot of reading here tonight. I'm not sure what moves me to look around. Searching for inspiration, searching for clues, searching for signs of you. I only rhyme for effect. Its rhyme not reality. Explain, Explain. Always explain. Such is a life not lived alone. I listened to a story tonight that hit …

nervous ticks

I've got a twitch in my right eyelid and in the bend of my right elbow. They've been there for days. It seems to be some kind of nervous tick showing itself? It's incredibly annoying. I decided on option "C" last night which is to say, instead of seeing any music at all, I just …

a day

I am working more today than I have in some time. I even missed the workout window I like. I thought to go walk but now the sky has turned, the trees are swaying more to and fro and a soft drizzle is beginning to fall. It feels like it's rained almost everyday since May. …

it's all about me today

It's another time when I feel I am floating through my life. I am getting up and getting down and getting up again everyday. I recognize the symptoms finally. I feel like I am just two feet above everything and watching all that is happening without taking part. Sleep now because it's time. Eat now …