my birthday

This weekend hayseed threw me a surprise party complete with celebrity guests, friends who traveled great distances and long lost friends. The evening was fun and easy. Not really, I was pretty manic most of the evening. I had maybe three beers but felt drunk from the moment I walked into the house. It's cliche' but as …

Home is not really a place at all

I posted only one other time this month so I guess this is somewhat required lest I be lost and forgotten. It's been easy enough to be lost in the crazy amount of work lately or lost in the changes around the house. I've just been to distracted to write anything. Last weekend, I took …

an exercise in pouting

I languished in my soft chair and ottoman all day watching Dawson's Creek season three on DVD and occasionally reading this P Highsmith book I've been neglecting. This was my Sunday. Un-showered and pouting all evening because my friends didn’t invite me on their excursion to the day at the state fair. I wouldn’t have …

self imposed exile

I would be hard pressed to explain to anyone this desire to be alone. It's nothing personal. Nothing that has to do with anyone but me. Nothing to do with nothing. I just want to be alone. Really alone. I want to sit in my home in front of the movie screen, work in my …