and in the awkward silences

When the phone rang I didn't think not to answer. It even took me a minute to realize it was pepper. For the first time I can remember, I didn't have anything to say - nothing good, nothing bad, just nothing at all. Pepper doesn't know how to take me when I am quiet. But …

I was just standing there looking. You stood and waved. I took a deep breath to calm myself and to steady the nervous shake that racked my body. I shook my hands out loosening the final quiver. I was happy to see you and scared all at the same time without any explaination for any …

There's no reason for it. It will happen time and time again and it's selfish in the most irritating way...wasted emotion? I'm just a great big bundle of it in disguise. What an utter ruse for what shows on the face can be heard in the voice - the silence, the shorter clipped speech. I …

today

Today, it finally looked like winter as a soft blanket of clouds languished high above the rest with air clean and crisp. It's close and yet it will come and go like love. I was driving in East Texas today. It was like driving through an Adam Carroll CD....at the bar in Grand Saline, past …

thankful

There's so much going on. It is all the same thing and I love it for all it's beauty, uniqueness and sheer size. I was telling Ori how everything I think and say these days is about love and us. I was thinking to write about it but the same words echo over and over, …